That British Latte Guy
I have been thankful for everything that has happened in my life for the past months. It’s been a wonderful experience, and I am so proud of myself! I have learned to look at things differently. I have learned to turn to God in everything. I never thought though that He will give something again that I will not fully understand.
For a month or so, this British guy who comes in our store every Sunday to buy his latte, was fast becoming my inspiration, crush, and a dream! I noticed him one time but I never really put him in my mind like I do now. Not until, one time, I was joking with a friend. You know when you joke and say things like…oh my papa is there!…look! That kind of thing. My friend asked where, and as I was about to point him out he was already looking at us! He’s the one that’s looking at us, I told her. Does he know, my friend asked. I jokingly pouted and told her no!!!! Hellooooooooo!!!! It’s just a day to day crush, nothing more. Well, that’s what I thought.
He buys his lunch in Spinney’s. I see him everyday. Sometimes not. The thing is, he really does look at me. I don’t know why. How could a good looking guy like that stare at me? He’s practically a King Leonidas for heaven’s sake!!!! So one time I looked at him too….he still looked. I even changed the places I stood to really verify if I was the one who he is looking at. He still looked! Then, I asked one of staff to look at him for me so at least someone can see if it’s real or not. It’s real HE IS LOOKING AT ME. Gosh, this is too much for me. If this is the will of God then this is unbelievable.
There’s a hitch though. I was looking at his face all the time I didn’t notice the ring he was wearing. It’s a silver band but not on the wedding finger. He wore it in his middle finger. Does that mean he’s married or not? Dumb me. With that small detail I suddenly froze and decided not to think about it so much. I DON’T WANT TO GET HURT AGAIN. Don’t want to love and waste time in something that will not last. My love is pure, and sincere. Even if he’s a dream guy I wouldn’t take a chance. But how would I? I don’t even bother to know the truth behind that ring. I am too scared to know the reason why he’s looking at me. I am just damn petrified!!!!!
He is still looking. I am trying to hear God’s voice. I had it all back. I realized I still didn’t have that strength to give up and risk again. I have to learn to do that again.
wow! a new post!
zen, i know how you feel about not wanting to get hurt again. i believe that if that guy is interested, he will eventually make a move. if not, well that’s his loss and you probably wouldn’t deserve a man who would have to wait for you to make the first move.
continue being strong with your faith, God will lead you to where you want to be.
i know i have been busy lately….but i just needed to write these thoughts or else i would burst!!!! i am just praying for this guy and it seems the answer is for me to try….i was thinking maybe that’s the thing that God wants me to learn?
maybe. all i’m saying is you should just go with the flow. don’t analyze too much…don’t analyze at all. lol, that’s where we girls start having problems e. kasi we analyze too much so our next move is based on that. did that make sense?
naku clare, that’s the last thing i’m doing nga kasi it’s impossible for me to have that guy! para siyang artista kung baga! it’s very flattering lang na napapansin niya ko. i keep telling myself also that if it’s meant to be then it’s meant to be. i’ve learned my lesson from my past relationship!